When we arrived at the hospital the next day, my grandmother was very ill and appeared extremely frail. She hadn’t been eating well and could barely speak. After talking to her for a while, I opened the bag of watermelon, removed a small piece and touched it to her lips. She opened her mouth and I gently placed the chunk on her tongue. She was without her dentures, but she began to chew, the juice of the watermelon visible in her mouth.
As she chewed the fruit and as I reached into the bag again, my fingers seeking just the right-sized piece, I remembered our ritual. I was suddenly on the porch of the old house on Tower Street—the house where I lived the first four years of my life.
It was hot that day, and my grandmother was breaking chunks of watermelon with her hands, removing the seeds, and feeding the juicy fruit to me. When I was done chewing, I would open my mouth, our special language of trust, and she would place another sweet and salty piece on my tongue.
She continued to open her mouth to take in the juicy bits of melon. I had gotten the seedless variety.
She carefully removed each black seed before feeding me another piece—one for Granny and one for me.
In the dark of the hospital room, it was Granny and me again, perhaps for the last time, I couldn’t know. This time, she was the one trusting. I thought it might please her to know that I had learned my first lesson from her.
As I left the hospital that day, it occurred to me that my connection to watermelon, a fruit I rarely eat today, might change after Granny is gone—it may well become the thing I think of eating when I need to take care.
Kelley, what a beautiful way of remembering the gift and the grace of food. I can't help but to see this moment with your grandmother as "eucharistic." It reminds me of what it truly means to be remembered in body and soul. Thank you!
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Thank you Kelly. I have missed your contributions in this space. Your writing ministers to me. In this case I am exalted to better appreciate the true value of eating watermelon with a loved one, especially when the fork is your fingers.
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Kelley, please forgive me for misspelling your name.
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